the great length that we go to ...to hide our natures, or worse to deny what we are or to just create a completely believable illusion of what we would love to see in ourselves without even changing a single thing in us......
but that pegs the question ..why?
is that change necessary ? or do we just love to "evolve" ? or better yet hide ... or even pretend or convince ourselves that we are something that we are not .
and even if we sucesseded in that ... the hardest part and the most important is yet to come; conveying this supposed reality to others , making them believe in what we have created and in what we would love them to think about us.
why can't we accept ourselves the way we are...white, black,shallow, deep, with no purpose or just full of sense of direction ? and why can't we accept the world we live in the way it is, do we have to try to change people's minds all the time? do we have to care about what others think about us ? why can't we just ....be ?
some might think that what I've talked about is actually appealing and not as bad as i made it sound ..
the truth is .. everything comes with a price ..deep down we will never know peace of mind, we will always wonder what others will think of us . so what's the point of wasting this kind of energy , this time in something that isn't real to begin with , we could turn into just remains of a person , something that stains the wall ,something that people walk by without noticing .
we could never be whole again , neither will we ever know our true selves.
