The Movies..

the movies..... "films that we like to go and watch" , that's the common definition that we like to think that's even close to describe what the word "movie" , but let me tell u my friends , that's in the past and that definition is completely mistaken...

when i think of the word " movie" , the word " set up " also comes to my mind, because honestly, that's what they really are.. Movies can set you up for the biggest disappointments of your life .
I'll give you an example for the sake of not thinking me crazy and pessimistic.... when we go to watch a romantic movie, we see 2 people walking down the street , in the rain, holding hands, maybe even sharing some ice cream and all that jazz.. and here comes the most important part ... we hear that soft music setting up the mood just right , and you catch yourself ( even you , who are not so romantic ) sighing, smiling and wishing that there was someone next to you who'd be holding your hand at that very moment, and those who actually have gone to the movies with someone they like.. they find themselves reaching for their hand, and sometimes all they get in return is a weird look and a " what's wrong with you ?? "
and what's even worse is that at the pivotal moment when the couple start to say " i love you" to each other and kiss and whatever ,the music swells up and fills the room in a way staged to make you want this to happen to you in real life at any cost.....( and girls know what i mean when i say " at any cost" !! )
here comes the disappointment part .. when you actually fall in love in real life , in your head you're expecting this music and surroundings around you to be similar to what you experienced in the movie before.. and when they DON'T actually happen, you feel incomplete , sad and unsatisfied, and you start to doubt what you really have with this someone . that was just one example for what i mean...
here's another one just to make my point clear... when you start watching an action or an adventure movie, you see the hero all brave , wearing an expensive suit and acting all james bondy..and all the girls fawning over him... and at that particular moment , you actually start to realize that THIS will never happen to you, let's be honest with ourselves, not all of us can go to exotic places every year and live the greatest adventure ever lived, right ??

HOWEVER..on the other hand. the very same movie can take you places that you've never been to before , and makes you experience feelings, and things you're pretty sure that you'll never run into throughout you life, so it's a blessing in disguise and a two-edged weapon.
My advice to you is to never get carried away, watch the movie and get out of the theater thinking" it's just a movie " , don't get hung up on every scene , and wishing you were a part of it.
God save our sanity , everyone ..
Cheers.

this place i love

Sister bring my hat and coat and gloves to me
Dear sister bring my hat and coat and gloves to me
For I am going to a place, that knows only of peaceAnd harmony
Oh brother help me with my traveling case
For to this land I now depart
My memory to vanish without trace
And I’ll sing . . .
It is with great despair I leave this place, I love My friend my family ;to stay I fear that I will be called to take up arms against another’s love..
I cannot live this life in misery
So let me go without a tearAnd do not judge me harsh for leaving here
And I’ll sing . . .

stains

the great length that we go to ...to hide our natures, or worse to deny what we are or to just create a completely believable illusion of what we would love to see in ourselves without even changing a single thing in us......
but that pegs the question ..why?
is that change necessary ? or do we just love to "evolve" ? or better yet hide ... or even pretend or convince ourselves that we are something that we are not .
and even if we sucesseded in that ... the hardest part and the most important is yet to come; conveying this supposed reality to others , making them believe in what we have created and in what we would love them to think about us.
why can't we accept ourselves the way we are...white, black,shallow, deep, with no purpose or just full of sense of direction ? and why can't we accept the world we live in the way it is, do we have to try to change people's minds all the time? do we have to care about what others think about us ? why can't we just ....be ?
some might think that what I've talked about is actually appealing and not as bad as i made it sound ..
the truth is .. everything comes with a price ..deep down we will never know peace of mind, we will always wonder what others will think of us . so what's the point of wasting this kind of energy , this time in something that isn't real to begin with , we could turn into just remains of a person , something that stains the wall ,something that people walk by without noticing .
we could never be whole again , neither will we ever know our true selves.

Anti-life

beware and read the following at your own stake !!!!

that been said, here goes......
the pic says it all.......our lovely faculty.......pharmacy .....university of alexandria.......I could almost swear that the school is conspiring to destroy not just kill ....no DESTROY each and every one of us ..poor innocent little angels.....what did we do to deserve this ???? was it our fault that we got good grades in the secondary educations and we listed pharmacy as our choice after repeated heat /sun strokes that fateful , God-forsaken day ???!!!!!!!
let's list the reasons why i hate pharmacy ...or hate myself for throwing me into eternal hell

1) ceutical and organic chemisty ( no further explanations needed of course)
2) the way that the assissant teachers treat us as if we were roaches that they have salvaged from the sewers
3) the compeletly useless and unimaginably large courses that we have to endure let alone PASS .... (ah ya 3eeny ya ma..)
4)the smells we have to breathe thru our lungs while we wait for the oral exam .....
5)the feeling that you are nothing but a machine that has to be filled up to the top with useless garbage ..note to the fillers: the machines are about to explode in your faces ..and soon

for refrences: mariam nabil blogspot

cheers

my island

my retreat , my sanctuary, my little hidden place , it's off the radar where no troubles can touch me or even think about it .
a new place that i can discover new things about , an intriguing mystery that lurres meinto the forest , what am i going to do next ? what dangers are there ? it's a fabulous feeling, the uncertainty of the unknown and the fear of finding out but still u can't help but go ahead and facing it .....
where is this place anyway? is it imaginary? a hidden reality ? or is it just there for me ? in my own little mind? ...i don't even think i want to know the answers, sometimes too many Q and A s wear me down and just bother the hell out of me .... i prefer it this way.... taking things one step at a time, discovering each secret without hurry or haste...yup that's what i want
afterall, it's my island , it'll never leave or disappear .....
( to J.Locke....)

For what once was there

This old house is falling down around my ears
I'm drowning in a river of my tears
When all my will is gone , you hold me stay
And i need you at the dimming of the day

You pull me like the moon pulls on the tide
You know just where i keep my better side

What days have come to keep us far apart
A broken promise or a broken heart?
Now have all the birds flown away
I still need you at the dimming of the day

Come the night you're only what i want
Come the night you could be my confidant
I see you on the streets with teary eyes
So why don't you come and ease your mind with me

I'm living for he days we steal away and i need at the dimming of day
I will always need you at the dimming of the day

loosen your hold

why is it just so hard for us or at least some of us to let go of something ? weather it's your past or an idea that u just can't get over or whatever.....
accepting changes and letting go of something that it's so familiar to u can be a very painful experience . and it's always the first step that is the hardest and if u had enough courage to just do it , i think that's be one great achievment . why do we always want to hold on to something that deep down we know that it doesn't belong to us anymore , why? is it that we like to feel comforted by this feeling of false hope , the feeling that " if maybe i'd hold on for a bit , things will change and everything will be peachy again " remember the keyword here is : false . the faster u accept reality the better things will turn out for you , believe me ! just know that weather u want to know it or accept or not , things will probably change and this "reality " that u won't just accept is what is really going on around you while u're whirling around your axis blindfolded and wearing earplugs.
life is what happening while you're making plans